Lessons from a bride

(Jesus speaking: taken from a message given to a young disciple: )

“Yes My wind is wild and untamed and you’ve experience a bit of My unexpected nature but now you must pick up your courage and use what you’ve learned to come ride with Me once again and not fear it. Don’t fear Me, don’t say I am too unpredictable to trust… Haha sweet one! I am the God of the universe! I am wild! And I am teaching you to love My wild nature and to love flying with it! Come let’s run, let’s ride, let’s fly! With the crazy, wild, unpredictable nature of your God.”

Embracing the Hard Side of Jesus

I very much could relate to the heart roller coaster, fire-and-ice experience. I’ve had very similar feelings through some of life’s trials over the past couple years. And I have to keep choosing if “the relationship is still on”. Will I keep going with this challenging person called Jesus Christ? But I seem to just need Him so much, that whatever He is like, however He reacts, whatever He tests me in, hard to manage or not, I just can’t go on without Him. And His warm and loving side always makes up for it. So I’ve chosen, and I keep choosing to “Embrace the hard side of Jesus”. It’s part of the package deal.

Here are a few thoughts I’ve had, verses I think about, and what has helped me to keep on going and not be “offended” in Him, but to keep exploring Him, and proving that I really do want Him forever, no matter what that will mean for me. The other alternative is in no way attractive.

His “good” is just too good to pass up. So I need to take the challenging and straightening sides of Him with it, and learn to love them too. Since He is not going to change, and all He does is for good, it’s me that needs to change and learn to be a bit tougher and braver, and have more faith. I need to learn to be thankful for the way He is, and to love and be glad for His “hard and strong” side.

Others had tests on this too. Here’s what Jeremiah said:

Jeremiah 20:7 O LORD, thou hast deceived me, and I was deceived; thou art stronger than I, and hast prevailed: I am in derision daily, every one mocketh me.

In Isaiah, the Lord gives a clue that there would be times that His appearance would not be attractive—especially when on the cross:

Isaiah 53:2 For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.

A rock of offence He is called—and His disciples need His “testimony” and “law” to make it:

Isaiah 8:13 Sanctify the LORD of hosts himself; and let him be your fear, and let him be your dread.

Isaiah 8:14 And he shall be for a sanctuary; but for a stone of stumbling and for a rock of offense to both the houses of Israel, for a gin and for a snare to the inhabitants of Jerusalem.

Embracing the Hard Side of Jesus

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“I’m a sensitive person, and I first read through the Bible, cover to cover, when I was 16-18 years old. There were some places, many, that were just a bit too tough meat for me.”

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“Stay By Me”

“I embrace all sides to Him, He’s a package deal.”

 

 

 

 

What makes you different


“The Love of God is far greater than pen or tongue can ever tell…” I wrote: I used to merely think I needed You, Jesus. This was a great step. Wonderful things happened when I made that realization. However, greater was my surprise when many years later, You let me in on a secret: You needed me too. It was almost too much to fathom, and perhaps I didn’t really grasp it for a long time; maybe I still don’t. But the wonder of it made me feel loved to a new degree never before felt, and wish to always be a part of You, to fill that need. And now, as the years again have rolled on, a new wonder, and revelation has come to my slowly maturing soul, that what You actually needed was me to need You! It’s not enough that I love You, or that I know You love and need me. But You need me to crave You, to never be satisfied with anything else. So that’s why I never do get full, I always have a hunger lingering in me. You made me that way. You made me to always desire You. When that is realized—that You are the only one that fills me completely, and that it’s most satisfying to You when I do crave you and long for You, then it all makes sense. And there is only one option for joy—that we are, forever, inseparably together; eternally. Your joy and my joy can only then be complete. I don’t have to wish that I didn’t have a hunger for deep love. I don’t have to be anything far out and wonderful to make You happy. I simply have to stoke up the fires of my craving to be utterly enveloped and filled by Your love, and be content to yearn for You above all—then You are satisfied, because You know I’ll stick around. When you see I am content with You and You alone, caring for nothing else above what I know only Your love can offer, then I get to enjoy satisfaction like I can only dream of. Only You can fill me like I’m created to want to be filled. I want you. I want You now. I want You in a million years. Because I want…I lack, I am not complete, and never will be without the part of You within Me that only You fit in to. We just fit like a glove; for You are the Maker of love. Not only, “The Maker” of that mystical thing called love, but the creator of the need for it as well.

Maker of Love

 

 

Jesus Speaking


“When the leper was aching so desperately for a touch, for affection, for acceptance, I touched him. It crossed the boundaries of “right” for a human, living on Earth, with the troubles that come to humans if doing the same thing.

The Son of God can do these things—for that man, for you, for anyone. People could not withstand the evil destruction of leprosy. But I, with God’s power while in a human form, could not only give the needed healing, but give the needed touch of love to the most disdained soul, stuck in affliction.

I don’t have boundaries for the sincere seekers. Only those who want to use Me as a way of getting what they want out of life—like praying for selfish wishes that have nothing to do with our ongoing relationship and the needs of My heart. I don’t satisfy those—but that too is love, because then they will seek out a better way to My heart…and find Me. Their being left without, will show them the way to a closer relationship with Me.

To say you’ll love and praise and worship Me in one way, and not another, doesn’t make you more “righteous” or more loved, really. It’s all about what each person personally needs to make their faith in My reality grow to such heights that nothing and no one can topple it, or top it.”

the leper

 

 

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first posted jan. 02

a time to reflect

“God is love; I am the God of love, not of hate and destruction. This destruction comes from the very heart of man, a selfish nation that in many respects has forgotten God.

This is not My doing as some would think, it is due to the sins of the heart. The fires that are destroying your country and the things that you hold above Me; your properties, your flora and your fauna are simply a physical manifestation of an inward spiritual burning.  Search your hearts, listen to those whom I have sent to warn you, beware for they are as My prophets, they are not sent as a punishment but out of love, for I would that not one should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

These sins that started in the heart are now manifesting in the physical for the entire world to see; a people who have forgotten God. I love the sinner, I died for the sinner, but I loathe the sin and sin cannot go unrewarded. Yes I have allowed this travesty, but not out of a willing heart, you have brought this fire from hell upon yourselves.

It is a small thing for Me to change the winds or bring the rains you so desperately need, but first Australia put out the fires of sin in your hearts; as Nineveh of old repented and was spared; you too will feel the cool winds and rains of forgiveness. “

australia burning…

Love not the World

I love You! I adore You! I need You! I want You! Come to me and love me! Come into me and fill me with Your seeds of Love. Fill me to overflowing!–Not just so that I can hold it within myself, but help me to overflow on others with that same love. I want to love others with Your Love. I want to give them the love You’ve given me.


I love to touch You, to feel Your face, to see You! To hear You is what I live for. Oh, that everyone could know You as I know You, and as You are!

“I am bound unto You as a lover is bound unto the one whom she loves. I desire not to be loosed from You, for You are far fairer than any other, far greater than any other.”

 

I am bound unto You as a lover is bound unto the one whom she loves. I desire not to be loosed from You, for You are far fairer than any other, far greater than any other.

 

Touch me with Your Spirit. Fill me with Your Love. I need You! I need Your Love, so that I can give love to others. I need Your warmth, so that I can be warm with others. I need Your forgiveness and Your mercy, so I can be forgiving and merciful to others.