USED galleon

prayer

“Help me to find You now in this moment of deepest grief, My darling. I want to be with You, heart to heart, face to face where all I see is You and Your beauty and Your majesty. I need to see Your eyes now, so desperately! When You look at me, You see deep down into my soul; You search me and You find me in my despair. You know my heart inside out. You see my need and the hurt, even when I want to blame You and question Your ways with me; even when I say, “It’s not fair!”  Oh, My Husband and my King, my best Sweetheart, my closest Friend, the One who never leaves me, never gives up on me, I want to be single-minded. This is my desire, but sometimes –I’m so sorry– I falter and fall and stumble and find myself in the dirt again. I feel so hurt, and again that it is too hard. I lose all my resolve, and it seems impossible all over again. So tired, but I can’t sleep. Hungry but can’t eat. Feels like I’m in reverse –falling… like there’s nothing to hold onto. How quickly that crack floods my mind. And yes, right when my galleon is full…full of blind obedience and just saying yes, the test comes, and I fail so miserably…I’m so sorry my Jesus…but where shall I go from Your presence; where shall I flee from You, darling One? You are right with me lying in the mud. You are willing to lie down in the mud with me and get all dirty too, dear sweet Jesus. Oh Jesus, you are with me when I make my bed in the dirt. You know my frame, how so very hopeless I am without You. I don’t want to turn my face away from You, my sweetest ever! I really do want the truth in my inward parts; you know that –despite my wanting to just disappear and not have to face this unclimbable mountain before me. It is too high, too steep, too rocky, too cold, too windy, not enough oxygen!”

Psalm 132: 4,5

I will not give sleep to mine eyes, or slumber to mine eyelids, Until I find out a place for the LORD, an habitation for the mighty God of Jacob.

Jesus speaking:

I will not let you rest until you have given Me the place in your heart that I require of you. I will not let you sleep until you have filled your habitation (your heart) with My Word. Do not give sleep to your eyes, nor slumber to thine eyelids, until you have put Me in first place again. Thou cannot sleep because thine house is not filled with My Word, My soothing, peace-giving, sleep-bringing Word. I wake you in the night seasons because your lamp is running low.

 

Psalm 139:11 If I say, Surely the darkness shall cover me; even the night shall be light about me.
Psalm 139:12 Yea, the darkness hideth not from thee; but the night shineth as the day: the darkness and the light are both alike to thee.

 

 

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Psalm 134:1

Behold, bless ye the LORD, all ye servants of the LORD, which by night stand in the house of the LORD.

Jesus speaking:

Both day and night, I call you to service. I am the High Priest of the house of your heart, your temple. And I expect you to be present with Me at all times; to be a faithful Levite, always ready to sacrifice, to stay up late, to burn the midnight oil, to wait on Me no matter how long into the night; to be a good watchman of your heart, keeping it clean and well stocked with the Word of Life. But if you aren’t being a good steward, and aren’t keeping your heart with diligence, then I might have to wake you in the night and say, “The oil is diminishing, and the Word of God in your heart is failing. Up now, run speedily, and fill thine heart with the Oil of Truth, lest your flame flicker low and go out, and you find yourself in darkness.”

 

 

psalm 119:55

I have remembered thy name, O LORD, in the night, and have kept thy law.
Psalm 119:148 Mine eyes prevent the night watches that I might meditate in thy word.
Psalm 121:4 Behold, he that keepeth Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.

Jesus speaking:

I love you so much. And I want you to remember in the times of battle that I, your Husband, never make you carry a cross which I have not already carried Myself. I am always there with you, under that same yoke, shoulder to shoulder, arm in arm, walking by your side. I wake up with you. When you can’t sleep, I am there, lying right beside you. In the midnight hours I am there. I will not sleep—I cannot sleep—when one of My Beloved watches alone in the night. I asked My disciples to be with Me in the Garden of Gethsemane, to stay awake with Me, to be by My side in My midnight hour. And I will be by your side in all your midnights, in all your trials and torments. I know you love Me and crave Me—you don’t mind so much being alone in the flesh, but I know that you cannot take being away from Me in the spirit and feeling alone in the spirit. No one can. So I wanted you to know that I will never leave you nor forsake you. I will never slumber nor sleep while you fight on. I am standing there with you—on your right side usually. That’s where I like to stand, so I can lock arms with you as a lover would. I really am there with you. And I take your infirmities. I bear your sicknesses. I place them upon Myself, so that I may comfort you with the comfort that I am given. To the weak became I as weak, that I might gain the weak. I am made all things to all men that I might by all means save some. I love you, My Love, and am always there for you.

 

 

Psalm 32:4

For day and night thy hand was heavy upon me: my moisture is turned into the drought of summer. Selah.
Psalm 42:3 My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?
Psalm 42:8 Yet the LORD will command his loving kindness in the day time, and in the night his song shall be with me, and my prayer unto the God of my life.
Psalm 63:6 When I remember thee upon my bed, and meditate on thee in the night watches.
Psalm 77:6 I call to remembrance my song in the night: I commune with mine own heart: and my spirit made diligent search.

Jesus speaking:

If I call you in the night, then it is a time to learn. The Night showeth knowledge. I communed with My first children, Adam and Eve, in the cool of the evening. I called Samuel in the night to speak with him. I myself spoke with My Father in the early mornings while it was yet dark. I spoke to many of My servants in dreams and visions upon their bed. In the night, your spirit and mind are relaxed. They have nothing else to do other than listen. They can’t help but listen because everything around them is still and quiet. I love to connect with you in the night seasons. My voice is so clear because everyone else has stopped their incessant chatter and I have a chance to be heard. I don’t like to talk to you all loud and shouting—like I sometimes have to do in the daytime. My words have to be short and to the point because there’s so much static around and other voices. But…in the night it’s all so quiet, so peaceful. I can come and really talk to you then. I can come and hold you and whisper with My still, small voice in your ear—like a lover. I can really show you some wonders of the spirit world! We can go deep; we can have a good conversation, without all the hindrances of the day. So if you find that you cannot sleep, or that I have called to you in the night, then know that I have something to say. Or maybe I just couldn’t get to really talk with you in the day like I wanted to, so I woke you from your slumber to express My love for you.

 

Psalm 19:2

Day unto day uttereth speech, and night unto night sheweth knowledge
Psalm 22:2 O my God, I cry in the day time, but thou hearest not; and in the night season, and am not silent.
Psalm 30:5 For his anger endureth but a moment; in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

Jesus speaking:

The night shall always pass. The heavy eyes, the exhaustion, the tormenting ailments, will all pass away in their time. I don’t allow afflictions without a cause; I don’t throw these things around randomly. There is a purpose in everything. In EVERYTHING, there is a purpose. Isn’t that wonderful? If you can truly believe that, then you will begin to see all battles from a different perspective. “They have a purpose; they were sent,” you will say, “I’m supposed to learn something.” Even when you don’t seem to have learned anything, you’ve still learnt something. Deep inside you’ve gained something. You’re a bit beaten up and washed out, but you’re also a more hardened soldier. You’ve gained grit, more endurance, and experience. You took it on the chin and are back up again! You’re being proven. Your mettle is being honed and tempered. Some fights are just that—proving melees. Every soldier has to be kept on his toes, else he become corpulent and lazy. So I keep you on your toes in many ways, My dear soldier. Even if it means rising from your cot in the midnight watches to face a duel outside your tent. The air is cool and sharp. The only light you have is the moon as it casts its deep shadows over the great field. It’s only you and your counterpart. You are all alone in the vast expanse of night…These night seasons teach you something you can never learn in the daytime. There’s a certain spirit about night. Your Father David talked about this. The quietness, the stillness, there’s so much the night can teach you, if you’ll listen…